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28 June 2013 @ 07:12 pm
What's wrong with me?  
I hate life. I’m so worthless no wonder I can’t succeed in anything. I hate me. I barely have money to pay bills and I’m lucky to eat once a day. What the hell is wrong with me!
Current Location: home
Current Mood: distresseddistressed
Ith: Art - Ring of Brodgar  Orkneyithildyn on June 29th, 2013 01:08 am (UTC)
jedimasterstar: candlelightjedimasterstar on July 10th, 2013 10:22 pm (UTC)
Thank you!
controls_ladycontrols_lady on July 8th, 2013 08:53 pm (UTC)
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If it helps any, I don't think there's anything wrong with you. I went through UofP, and remember how little sleep I got, less than what I do now. Got my Masters degree from there, building on my BS degree from MSSU, and I still have never worked in my chosen field. Right now I am about as far away from it as I can get, in a very very part time job, and I admit that I've given up - DON'T follow in my footsteps.

You do have at least some money, although I am concerned about your only eating once a day. That might be part of your feeling worthless; not enough fuel to get things done, maybe?

I'm sorry. My mind clicks over into "fixit" mode occasionally, and that doesn't really help. Can I just say that I have a feeling you're doing the best you can, and that if you hang in there and keep going, things are going to get better. You're not alone.

(closes and zips mouth and almost backs away from keyboard...)

jedimasterstar: candlelightjedimasterstar on July 10th, 2013 10:27 pm (UTC)
Re: {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Hugs, too!}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
You're okay! I'm doing a bit better now, though I'm still in the "give up" mode. But my mother is pretty much trying to help boost my confidence up.

You went to the UofP? I'm taking online classes and that is part of my problem. I like the curriclum but I'm not much of a team player. That and all the technical stuff. It just gets frustrating and I've had a couple of breakdowns becuase of it.

And now I am up to two meals a day right now plus a snack. I'm getting back up there!

And it's cool to be in "fixit" mode. I'm cool with with because it gives me ideas to work on. I know things can get better - I just have to believe it myself.